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arlo bloggie..

let's talk about Friday, alright?

yeah like what i mention yesterday, i did no tutorials.
Went for Aud make up tutorial at 9, which i reach the class at around 930.
I was supposed to present for question 3,
however, i dont have thumbdrive and i didnt bring laptop, so my answer is only in email.
LKY sure isnt that happy and just ask the other class to present the last question [ we had a combine class ]

11am, we attended tax tutorial, its quite a slack one whereby the tutor always go through the whole topic. Evil class of mine just keep disturbing the teacher, very fun though. As she finished all the students' queries, and intended to move on to the 1st theory questions, the class goes something like "cher! you already went through all the theory questions! qn 5 qn 5 !" qn 5 is the last question of computation. Tutor got abit agitated and just say "like that class over lar !" and the whole class goes so excited! woo'ing away, pretended that its really end of lesson.. tutor can only laugh in despair.. whole lesson keep bullying the nice tutor but seem like she had some fun in a way too~
Lesson ended, yg keep pushing me to go for lunch with them.
He suggested westmall [ xy dont want go so far ], and take subway [ I dont feel like having subway ]
Then he stand there keep asking us to go.. bit of forcing like that..
I even said bye to daniel and cheryl and he still wouldnt give up..

as xy and I walk towards SIM,
yg called again and say "how about alumni??"
=.="" We just went alumni on wednesday!
and dont feel like using so much money, compared to SIM.
what is he trying to do!
i reckon things wont be like before, being comfortable eating and going elsewhere 1 on 1 with him.
Its just getting worse and worse!

On the other hand,
I had talked to wilson's jie.. we decided on buying an icecream cake from westmall and surprise xiaogorgor as I messaged him that i might not be going iceskating.

However, things went wrong when xgg's jie mention about the surprise on phone with ben,
not knowing that the call is in loudspeaker mode and wilson is right beside him!
So of course, everyone got quite bored about it..
and seem like the plan just wouldnt work anymore..

Met xgg after our lunch, feeling quite embarrassed about the whole surprise thing..
but i still took xgg's darling and peanut mei number from him..
yes, it is very very last minute, so both of them couldnt make it..

ben then told xgg that he's too bored about the whole thing that he doesnt want to go ice skating anymore, and I told xgg that his jie dont want to go either..
which in fact we just continue with the plan again.

As ben and xgg's jie reached the rink, we tried to distract him.. hoping he wouldnt find out anything..
yeah i know he knew it all the while, but nevermind, all of us just continue with the "surprise"..
his jie keep asking me how how..
had a few suggestions and i faster went back to where xgg is..
in a few moments later,
an iceskating girl came over and drag wilson away..
i didnt know what's happening?
Seeing that quite a group gathered at the other side, then i just walk over..
wonder why will I even be feeling alittle out of the group =S
but nevermind.. everyone sang the birthday song happily while i took the video down.
However, situations occurred! there's no knife or tissues for the cake!
Got a knife from the uncle working there..
and they started cutting the cake into small slices..
I went to find my gloves and when i return, they were all having fun with the cake.
I wanted to go over, but i dont know how..
Approach huiling and guys who are nearby,
they rejected my offer to go take the cake..
How could they!
I look over to the group still playing happily, I know i ought to go over but I dont know them...
im strengthless without another someone..
If i go over, the most is just to take the cake..
nothing much can i do.

So i moved to the rink with huiling they all.

Wasnt feeling very well from that moment onwards..
xgg did come over later on asking why i never take the cake, except for the swensen logo he passed to me earlier on.
It was then i realise the cake was finished..
i dont know but i felt kind of down!
seems like i have no fate with icecream cake~

did i really make myself out like what xgg said?
but i dont quite think so.. 'cos i felt alittle that way 1st..
hardly see xgg so happy.. smiling from ear to ear..
that's nice.. though im not part of the reasons he's that happy..

Throughout the session, xgg skated together with his jie and their ben..
they all look very nice together..
We've never been that nice/close with xgg on ice before..
they do make xgg's day!
so, dont compare me with your jie anymore.
there's nothing to compare about..

Xgg did come over to us a couple of times, but left very soon again.. =[[
i understood the reasons but..

Huiling sees through me again this time..
when we were out of the rink,
waiting for the lift to leave..
she asked me what happen..
and she hugged me tightly..
ask me what did wilson do..
no.... he didnt..he didnt do anything..
then she told me a couple of sentences..
so she knew she understood the whole thing!
i almost cried!

I just want to go home.. =[

waited awhile for minjia's bus,we left for the sci centre.
its a nice peaceful place~
played awhile before I sent her off to her bus..
Sat at the busstop for awhile before I walk to the other road for my bus..
Sometimes i really hate my sensitiveness, too much cons than pros.
they are always the reasons to my moodswings!

*I clearly felt it, felt my heart's crying*

daisy blogged @ 1:36 AM