Missing you-

Saturday, 24 May.

Woke up real late today at around 2pm~

Tried doing CSC's report yet really in no mood, feel so bored, so was very easily distracted by the vast internet entertainment, searched for songs online.. "way back into love" =]

5plus, lit' sis started playing with my hair, tying and clipping here and there.

Family and I went out at around 7, attempting to go McDonalds' for celebration of sis's school result~ I suggested Boat Quay, since never been there before.

On my navigator, it shows that we should use the road towards bugis.
However, daddy never follow rules, be it government's or my navigator's, so navigator changed dozen calculations of the nearest route. In the end, we got quite lost, and I dont exactly know the location of the Mac, alittle bickers started in the car. Went pass Central, and decided to go there instead.

The carpark is too high! Daddy's car turn and turn and turn and turn and turn up 5 floors, that makes everyone kind of dizzy =S

and we parked our car at the ninth floor~

No McDonalds in this shopping centre, sis isnt that happy as she wanted to eat burger. Suggested that we take burger king, that makes sis agreed and got excited again. The whole Central's shops concept is rather confusing and big, took quite some time walking around to find burger king outside near the busstop.

Mummy asked who am i keep messaging to, said a "dorr, the birthday boy" .
Her memory still isnt that good after so long! Even think that he's the one making the food~ then she reminded me again to put all their photos on the wall or something. So whenever she asks me, I can just point to the photo and thus she'll be able to remember it easier. lol~

After the dinner, we took a stroll to Clarke Quay's river, there's lots of people sitting by the side, watching the new type of "bungee balls", seems nice~

Though its probably just a half an hr walk, i still enjoyed it~ Feel so peaceful, relaxing. Being the cheeky children of my parents, I pull mom's hand over to dad's, yet dad doesnt know how to be the man! He's so used to grabbing his other hand at the back~ and so mom commented that daddy dont like to hold her hand.. Sis sis also joined in and pulled dad and mom's hand together.. haha, so nice see them like those old couple holding hands =x Im not too bad either, i got sis's hand to hold too ~ =X

10plus yg called the first time today.
but as my hp went flat, the call ended.
Reached home to charge it.

Called huiling to see how is she since yesterday.

Call is ended due to me , again!
I slided my phone off, thinking that it would not affect since I have my ear piece inserted.
Guess it will automatically end the call that way if I am the one calling.

So, on my laptop to try calling again through msn~

11plus, yg called the 2nd time.
asking about the k thing.
then ask whether can he call later on.

12plus, yg called.
the call was very not right.
ended soon.

called again.
weird sounds, totally cant hear him.

called again.
called again.
Then somehow i got huiling and yg in to the talk~
change to loudspeaker for both of them..

this call went for quite long.
I asked yg for a few cantonese words.
He ask me not to learn instead
asking me to deal with my chinese and english first!
I got bit agitated, rebutted that daddy ask me to dont care about YOU this kind of people.
I can choose to learn whatever I want.
You dont have to tell me what to do.

but he continue trying to tell me what he thinks.

what can we say? nothing to say.
so there's a dead silence after he stop.
So soon he ended the call with us.

So i continued with msn-ing.
150am
Laptop actually hibernate on me itself, wasnt even prepared!
[alright, it did warn me..]
so i went to bath, at last, yar.

2plus~
turn on my laptop again.
chatted with a couple of friends.
yg pm me with " are you agitated by what i said just now?"
and started going alittle weird talking about simplicity
and how hard it is to know the deeper side of me as i always have this armor with me.

told him that the more he know of me probably only result in more misunderstandings and realise more differences between us.

and soooon,
he called me.

and got really really agitated.
i kind of forgot what happen after hanging up the call =s

In short, he started with how bad he is feeling in school, that he doesnt even want to come school.
we've been on this topic lots and lots and lots of time!
the sarcasism he had. the coldness im giving.
asking whether do i care.
then mentioned about the alumni thing again, that i did not wait for him.
asking is he so insignificant to me.
that I never tell him what am I doing, where am i going, what have i been doing for the past few days and complain that i treat it like im reporting to him when he asks me about it.
In library, that i stop him from disturbing us doing csc.
I was like, you suan and joked about people so many times and for my this joke, you take it so hard?
Then he goes that its personal joke, not like his.
and alot alot alot alot.
think nobody realise that tears fill up more easily when i got angry.
but nope, i didnt cry just 'cos of these frustrating quarrels.

it goes non-stop for 1 hour before he calm down.
then he say he will try not to suan me.
'cos he told me im the one he suan-ed the most. =.=
'cos he say he dont know how else to continue the conversation.
so i asked him to stop then.

it was 4 already when we hang up..

replied msn's messages.

oh, i gave another straightforward message to huiling =S
ber ask me what else can she ask from him so she wont lose out.
i dont know.
ive said so much so much.
cant think of anything else.
and i just blurt it out.

(2:45 AM) ღ[[xiaojun__:i tink i gonna hate him ler , making u tis wae=S

(2:46 AM) hUiLiNg™:huh
(2:47 AM) hUiLiNg™:den like i can't tell more about him le... ?
if not later u hate me too

(2:49 AM) ღ[[xiaojun__:not hate, but frustrated
(2:49 AM) ღ[[xiaojun__:been repeating it over n over again.. but still gettin back to the same outcome.. or even worse.. beri tired..

what the hell have i blurted out?! =SS
sorry.. i still care and want to know.. like what you say, dont like the people beside me but still want to know.. =]

weixiang called me after i replied him in msn.
asking who so crazy pouring out anger and frustration to me for one hour..
dont really feel like picking up another call actually~
funny him though, actually name yg as "bian tai"and asking me, he's your suitor? Suitor still do and say all these stuffs?

he know im tired, so hang up after 10mins~

and thus! im here to blog about it, not sleeping =S
treating it as the report that im supposed to hand up to mr. xgg~

im so perfectly fine~
no need worry xiaogorgor =]

6am, bloggy~

daisy blogged @ 4:04 AM